As my readers have probably learned by now, I’m almost never completely certain of anything. Every situation sparks 2000 questions – sometimes even the most mundane, simple-sounding scenario has the potential to cause a presidential-scale debate in my head.

There is something, however, that I’ve never questioned: the amazingness that is my husband. I’ve had plenty of other questions over the years, and there have been some comparisons to Hugh Laurie (ha ha). But I have never had a moment’s doubt as to how intelligent, kind, loving and wonderful a person he is. I’ve always known it. I know that I am probably the luckiest person alive, because he loves me. Tim Dickson loves me me me. That fact continues to astound me (and probably others, as well), and here we are, 7 years into our relationship and 5 years into our marriage (as of tomorrow!). Holy crap, he still loves me. I’ve been told countless times (in the past two days alone, nevermind the number of times he’s said it over the years!) that he’ll love me for as long as he’s breathing and even after. YEAH – YOU KNOW YOU”RE JEALOUS. I’m jealous of myself!

Further, as much as I worry about my abilities as a mother, I don’t have a doubt as to how well Tim will perform as a father. He’ll always find time to cuddle with Marco. Marco will never want for food, shelter, clothes or books. Tim will tell him every single day how much he loves him, and will teach him everything he knows. If Marco decides he wants to be an artist, Tim would make him an easel (it might lean a little, but it’ll stand up). Tim will make him grilled cheese sandwiches EXACTLY the way Marco likes them, and if by chance it has burned edges, he’ll make him another one. When Tim comes home from a hectic day at work, he won’t be too tired to wrestle or play hide-and-seek with Marco (Stabler can vouch for him on this one).

My excitement level for this baby to arrive has been, quite honestly, very low… I want him be here, but mostly because I am tired of being pregnant. I admit, though, I cannot wait to see Tim hold Marco for the first time. That is something I look forward to, and hope that it will be soon.

I love you, Timothy Ryan Dickson.